I have a confession... yesterday for dinner I spent the 3.27 for a Wendy's value meal. It was really stinkin good. But I shouldn't have done it. Subway was right across the street, and I had no excuse. Perhaps my guilt over this Wendy's trip is evidence that I'm committed to eating better. Oatmeal for breakfast - a sandwich for lunch, and then whatever the womenfolk cook for dinner. I have lost weight - about 6 pounds since coming back here. This is good because we ate horribly this summer. Sleep habits are pretty good - we go to bed early, 10 or 10:30, and it's nice to get up before 8 and not feel exhausted. I fear committing to excersize though. I know I know, I need it, but who can find the time? Also, I find that it doesn't give me energy like it does for a lot of people, instead I feel worn out afterwards. But it's better than being a fattie!

So what do my ministry partners know? Well I'm getting the picture that it isn't much. It seems like people don't really read our newsletters - and if they don't do that, then how would the know? Sure some people do read them - but it seems like most of them aren't reading them consistently. Andrea and I are trying to write thank yous to people and include some encouragement, but we're only nearing the end of the "B's" on our team, and we've had a recent spat of people leaving... we've lost 275 in monthly support in the last 2 months. So hopefully we can get something figured out...

Private thoughts on the internet.

I have been taking the initiative to share the Gospel, leaving the results up to God and nothing has happened. At least it seems that way. Maybe it seems that way because I have only shared with about a dozen students. Maybe it seems that way because this has been spread out over 3 weeks. Ugh. All this time walking around, looking for people to talk to and I have little to nothing to show for it. So few seeds tossed into the wind... I feel like outwardly I say that I'm "taking the initiative to share the Gospel in the power of the Holy Spirit and leaving the results up to God." But am I? I don't feel content with this! I want to see people come to Christ - and for good reasons too! Is there something wrong with me, with my heart that is making it so seemingly fruitless? Is it because I've raised all this stinking money to do this? Ugh. This is wearing me out.
I think I'm walking in the power of the Holy Spirit. Most of the time. I think that while I'm out there, I generally am walking in the Power of the Holy Spirit. It's when I'm at home thinking about the day that I start to doubt it.
WHATCHA TALKIN BOUT WILLIS?

Steppin Out

How often do you pray for yourself? On the long list of names that we all bring before God, do we include ourselves? I often find myself asking people, "How can I pray for you?" and even being somewhat surprised when after stumbling through an answer they ask me the same question (I never know how to answer that question either...). Maybe we should ask ourselves, "How can I pray for me?" Self evaluation is not a bad thing. So starting today, I'm praying that God would complete the work He has started in me (Phil 1:6), and that God would make me into the masterpiece that He wants to make me into (Eph 2:10 NLT). God can and does do great things. We see Him change lives and work wonders. Let's ask Him to do it in ourselves!